Rumbles & Grumbles

I don't know how I came to arrive at such a place. This will be the third Christmas since being able to purchase any gifts. At all. I know it's not about gifts; who said that anyway? Tell a two year-old that fact (whose?) when he receives gifts from everyone but his Nana. Tell that to a 12 year-old who has a birthday just before Christmas and once again, her Nana has no gifts for her. Perhaps I can bake some goodies to hand out as gifts. I baked cookies yesterday. Grumbling is not something I have ever wanted to be guilty of, yet it seems the light at the end of the tunnel grows more dim with each passing day. With the waking of another day the grumbling rumbles; and rumbles more loudly. Rumbling grumbling. I so need a Sunny spot for awhile. Even if for a week, my Heart would rejoice as my Soul would sing so loudly from the warmth of the Sun. Sun medicine. Lack of robs one's Soul of songs.

I'm not likin this

I am not liking this. Christmas. Holidays in general. I have four grandchildren of whom two are already thinking Christmas is fun & presents. I'm poor. Was that heard? It's depressing. As if I had no other reason to be depressed, the holidays antagonize the condition.

I can't wait until the holidays are over. I want to sleep through til New Year's Day. Then I can put the year ahead into perspective. There are way too many splinters at this time. Splinters hurt.

O Christmas Tree

With credit given to my cousin, Paula, we now have a Christmas Tree. I am so blessed to have cousins in my life who are closer than a sister, and the best friends anyone could have. Tis the Season to be Jolly (I am told).

Thanksgiving

I was able to hold my new granddaughter for the first time. She was born Nov 10.

WhewwwWeeee Life Goes Right On With or Without Us

I can't believe I have not been here since June 6, '08, but alas it is true. My baby girl is now All Grown UP, She graduated with a Blue Rope from Nursing Class. I am so proud of her that I am jumping up and down inside. Inside is all I jump and that is not always possible.

Kadyn, the little man you see above, is now as you see him below. Minus the Tiger suit. We do change him. :) He will be one year-old in February. My how they grow. And grow.

I think this is the first day in one month I actually left the house and stepped outside the gate. However horrid this is of me, I love this picture with a passion. My Natalee and me. We made it.

Below is a group photo of the happy family. Are they not beautiful? I still have not seen the new baby as I have been ill with Bronchitis for approximately one month.
My Grandson "Zesty" will be two years-old in March, and we now have a most beautiful little sister for him - her name is (forgot her cute little nickname as it has changed from "Sprite". Go here www.lemonliving.blogspot.com and see for yourself the excitement going on in the Lemon's Household.

I must say my Grandbabies have captured my Heart and there's no return from Babyville. They are fabulously remarkable. "Splenda" (In the Family pic above) is my soon to be 12 year-old Granddaughter. To my dismay, I see her very little. I gotta work on the hugs though, with her not being around me much in her little 12 years, she's not sure how to handle all those Nana hugs that I so want to give her. Oh well, time to sit back and watch her growing into that beautiful little lady she is becoming.

My Lyme Disease has not shown up in the most recent test, as I knew it probably would not. However having a bite for eight years before being diagnosed has left a path of destruction throughout my body. The second bite was caught in time; THANK GOD. I cannot imagine having two bites to leave my body devastated, as the first one gifted me with chronic damage. There are times when I am unable to raise off of the couch for anything that is not absolutely necessary. My depression is major. MAJOR. Where am I? I look in the mirror not recognizing the person staring back at me. That in itself is depressing in addition to the pain. What happened to the vibrant woman I was still just 10 years ago? Not a day goes by that I do not pray to be better. To be me. Again. Permanently.

Going to Walmart is a huge task. I walk mostly with my head down so that I do not have to look into eyes of people who knew me when.

Maybe I should go to sleep. I've been awake for over 24 hours now and it's not looking like I'm likely to get a nap.

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. I don't want to go out to join the festivities. I just don't. But, I will.

ALL GROWN UP '09

Graduation. It's tomorrow. I recall Christopher's Graduation; 15 years ago. There's a special feeling a Mother has when she watches her child walk across a stage, receive their Diploma, then walk off the stage into a real-live grown-up world. Just last week, Natalee, when I asked where was the DIVA Lic. Plate I bought her for her car when she turned 16, replied to me with eyes downward "I'm not 16 anymore Mom".

ALL GROWN UP '09

More Quizzes (I'll try to stop here)

Crystal Murphy

Crystal took the What does your Eye Color reveal about you? quiz and got the result: 88% Black, 12% Brown..

88% Black, 12% Brown: Rare, old eyes, smart, wise, learns fast, dangerous when irrtated,that is easily done. Your ideal role in society would be the Story Teller.

Crystal Murphy

Crystal took the Who Are You...REALLY??? quiz and got the result: The Forsaken One..

The Forsaken One: Sometimes you wonder about this life... is it worth living for? Your experiences have tethered your heart, your woes weigh down on your soul. It is hard for you to fathom the reason behind the hardship... but somehow you find a way. Your deep understanding of pain results in an empathy for others who have experienced similar. You will be the last to judge someone for who they are and what they've been through. You put up walls to guard yourself; but when you let someone in, they are able to see what a deep and fantastic being you are.

Crystal Murphy

Crystal took the Life Evaluation Quiz! quiz and got the result: 59% Happy..

59% Happy: Money: 87%
Love: 33%
Overall Happiness: 59%

You are generallly happy but feel that there is something or someone missing in your life.

Crystal Murphy . . . and this happens at what age? lol

Crystal took the PALM READING quiz and got the result: Blissful and loving life..

Blissful and loving life: Your hands tell you that you will live a blissful and loving life in which you are surrounded by loved ones and enjoy the close bonds you've developed with people - your family, friends, neighbors, co-workers, children, etc. These will be the people who are eager to share your happiness or help you out during difficult times.

Ronetra K. Hosler at 10:58pm June 5

How about now!

Crystal Murphy at 8:21am June 6

Now would be perfect my dear friend!

Crystal completed the quiz "Which of your Chakras is most open?" with the result Root Chakra.

The Root Chakra represents being "physically there" and feeling at home in certain situations. You feel grounded, stable and secure in your environment and are connected to your body, meaning that you feel as though you ''fit your skin''. You don't necessarily distrust people, but you are cautious as to whom you give your trust to. Make sure you don't become greedy or resist change..

Crystal Murphy Paint with all the colors of the Wind . . .

Colors of the Wind

Source: www.youtube.com

Colors of the Wind from Pocahontas

Robin Hosler at 8:48pm June 5

The wind aint got no color. the sky has color, the water has color and the ground has color. If the wind has colors, then it's blowing some dirt around. ha ha ha

Crystal Murphy at 9:08pm June 5

lol, but the Wind does have color my friend.

Crystal Murphy The first three lines are totally off.

Your Rising Sign is Libra

Source: blogthings.com

A total charmer, it's hard for people to say no to you. Irresistible and attractive, you have no shortage of love interests. Totally competitive, you tend to thrive in stressful environments. A peaceful soul, you avoid conflict at almost all costs. ...

Malia Glotzbach at 12:29pm June 5

But totally me!

Crystal Murphy at 4:16pm June 5

LOL, your'e right!

Crystal completed the quiz "Which Disney Girl Are You?" with the result Pocahontas.

You are intuned with nature. You love everything about it from the rather bad days to the lovely nice days. Everything about it is wonderful. However, because of this you do tend to lead a rather sheltered life because of where your people are. But you are definitely not afraid to explore what the world has to offer. .

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Crystal completed the quiz "What kind of mask do you wear?" with the result Innocence.

Your mask is innocence. You are innocent but not easily impressionable. You always give people the benefit of the doubt, and are nice to everyone you meet. You never really judge anyone, but you sometimes may judge yourself. Everyone who meets you usually adores you, even if you don't really know it. You always think you may be messing up or doing something wrong, but you're usually not. You don't have a problem restricting yourself from things you think you shouldn't do, although sometimes you're a bit curious. Sometimes people try to take advantage of you, but you don't always notice. Over all you're untainted, friendly, and everyone loves you. .

Was there any doubt?

Okay, so please do not ask me to give up my license plate of 10 years, okay?

Crystal completed the quiz "What Spice Girl Are You?" with the result Posh Spice.

You are Posh Spice, the sexy, dangerous one of the group. You are stubborn and hate to be told what to do, but you love to party, especially with the guys. .

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Speaking of worth keeping ......

Just look at these two gems. My eldest grandson is eating watermelon [I think] for the first time. He loves to eat; I love to watch him eat. Then there's little pudgy-wudgy who loves to watch his Mommy photograph him. What doll-babies. I am in love.

The Little Lost Blog ;o]

No one reads my blog. That's kind of lonely, but also not. Okay, am I talking in riddles? If no one reads it then I can type anything I want about anything I want without a care in the world as to who does or does not read my blog. I have developed a likeness for Face Book. Therefore, I sometimes will copy my status posts to this blog so that I never lose them. Some of those thoughts are worth keeping.

Commencement. This Sunday. Oh my.

I should not be frightened, but I am. My 2nd child will graduate from high school this Sunday, June 7 @ 2:30 o'clock in the afternoon. Consider this your invitation.

I am the Deer; so I'm told

I took this cute little quiz on Face Book just now. Well, what I thought would be a cute little quiz, or what should have been. It was to determine which Animal of the Wild you are. I'm thinking "fun"! My result was the Deer. Now what about the Deer should not be cute and welcome at that? Those of you who know me, know that I have Lyme Disease. Deer carry the tick, not the disease, which plays severe havoc on a person's being. Therefore, this cute little quiz was very real to me. What I am, is what has destroyed me:

Your Result: You are the Deer

You are a very graceful and beautiful person on the inside and outside. You can act rashly in some situations, but for the most part you uphold your dignity. You are a strong leader and are quick to detect danger. You know your boundaries, but are not afraid to try new things. You are well liked and are a sweet and caring person. You never lose your temper and are very gentle. You can adjust to new places quickly and are very enduring.

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Natalee's Last Day as a High Schooler

Yesterday being the last day of school is bittersweet. I can't believe Natalee will never need another reminder to wake up, another parent note for being late, or to ask for money for school. Watching her grow into young-womanhood has been an adventure. One I will cherish always. Despite the many nights, and days, of worrying, crying, screaming at one another, I am so very proud of her accomplishments. UgOgIrL! :)

Memorial Day Weekend

I recently joined FaceBook which has reunited me with high school friends. I can't begin to describe how happy I am to have found people who remind me of the me I feared I had lost.

Tomorrow I leave for Nashville. I'm thrilled to accept the gracious invitation from one of my very best friends. Talks, laughs, reflections ........ what a fun, wonderful weekend I am anticipating!

Okay, this little blog is over. Everyone have a happy weekend!

Now for some important stuff . . . ;o)

Meet Kadyn Matthew on the left. I have been blessed with yet two more Grandchildren since last I blogged. Grandsons. I believe one had just been announced, and one is brand new since February. On the right is my Grandson born in March '08, pictured with his big sister.

To my deep-down-to-the-end friends. You know who you are.

To those of you have remained a true friend over the years, and those who have recently shown their friendship, this is for you; be blessed:

Good afternoon! I did it!

After a couple of years of wondering what in the heck I did to mess up the font in this blog, I finally figured it out! Yes. I'm excited. Now I can delete the newest blog I made and continue with this one! Yay!!!